In a candid and emotional TV documentary series titled “The Me You Can’t See,” Prince Harry delves into the depths of his personal struggles, revealing how the trauma of losing his mother, Princess Diana, continues to haunt him. The series, co-produced by Harry and U.S. talk show host Oprah Winfrey, sheds light on mental health issues and the impact of loss.

The Fear of Losing Meghan

Prince Harry speaks openly about the fear of losing his wife, Meghan Markle. He explains that this fear was one of the main reasons the couple decided to step back from their royal duties and relocate to California last year. Reflecting on his mother’s tragic death, Harry draws parallels to Meghan’s experiences, particularly the racist reporting in the British press and the abuse she faced on social media.

Haunted by Memories

The documentary captures Harry’s vivid memories of Princess Diana’s funeral. Walking behind her coffin through the streets of London, he recalls the sound of horses’ hooves along the Mall. Despite the public display of grief, Harry admits feeling detached, showing only a fraction of the emotion he carried within.

“My mother was chased to her death when she was in a relationship with someone who wasn’t white, and now look what’s happened. You’re talking about history repeating itself? They’re not going to stop until she dies,” Harry says in the mental health documentary series “The Me You Can’t See”.

“The thing I remember most was the sound of the horses’ hooves going along the Mall,” he said. “It was like I was outside of my body, just walking along, doing what was expected of me, showing one tenth of the emotion that everyone was showing.”

“It’s incredibly triggering to potentially lose another woman in my life,” he added, referring to Meghan.

Helplessness and Anger

Harry also shares childhood memories of being pursued by paparazzi while riding in the back of his mother’s car. The feeling of helplessness—being too young to protect Diana—still haunts him. He confesses to burying his emotions, coping with alcohol, panic attacks, and anxiety in his twenties. The relentless presence of cameras triggers anger, reminding him of the injustice his mother faced.

“One of the feelings that comes up for me always is the helplessness. Being a guy and being too young to help a woman, in this case your mother, and that happened every single day,” he said.

Seeking Healing

Now 36 years old, Harry has sought therapy to confront his past. His relationship with Meghan played a pivotal role in this journey. “If this relationship was going to work,” he says, “I had to deal with my past.” The couple married in May 2018, and Harry continues to navigate the complexities of loss, love, and healing.